I wish

I wish I could tell you how you make me feel. That every time someone says your name, even if they talk about another person, there is a thump in my stomach. And when I see your name, it's like I can't breathe for a second and my heart skips a beat. So what would happen if I heard your voice? Or saw you? I wouldn't know what to do. Of course I want to hear you, and see you. I dream about it all the time. I'm crazy about you.

I wish I could tell you how I really feel, and that you would feel the same, but I think I’ll never be able to. Cause somehow I can't put feelings into words. I guess words isn't enough. I'm so bad at showing feelings for someone that I just assume they know how I feel about them. I want to tell you how I feel. I really wish I could tell you.

I just want to talk to you more, like we used to. We don't even talk at all anymore. It hurts, it really does. I don't know if you want to talk to me or not, even if you say you want to I don't believe you. Cause you never say hi, and I just don't dare to be the first one saying it. I don't even know what to talk about anyways, everything just hurts. Isn't that funny? I want to talk to you so badly, but it hurts and I act like I don't even want to talk to you when we actually do speak to each other. But it's all your fault and you know it. Why throw me away for someone else? Guess you didn't know what you actually threw away. I thought you loved me. Why lie? You couldn't have ment ANYTHING you said to me when you just threw it all away for someone you don't even know? I don't understand. Please explain yourself. I just want everything to be like it used to.

I'm yours, I always will be. I just wish you were mine.